About Me

MYSELF.

I want to run with reckless emotion. I want to find true love, even if I crash and burn at least I’ll know what it’s like to feel alive. If there's one thing im afraid of, its not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I’m afraid of quick judgments and mistakes that everybody makes. You can’t fix them without time. I’m afraid of seeing snapshots instead of movies.

LISTEN UP.

BLA BLA BLA.

gone with the wind

By FARAHMDY · January 30, 2010 · 0 Comments · 2 Views


frankly speaking, i had no intention of posting an entry when i logged in. but here i am, typing away. the week's been a hell of a roller coaster ride. i just cant take nursing life anymore. its irritating the hell out of me. i feel like im wasting my time persuing a dream that was not mine, to begin with. whats my dream career then? well, i dont know anymore. heck it.

oh well. there's nothing that i can do about it, can i? so just forget about it. at times, i felt like sharing whatever's bothering me with someone, anyone. but then again, who can i share it with? no one. why? correct me if im wrong, for the simple fact that they all have their own issues. i shall not burden them any further.

time check; 0000hrs. i should probably go to sleep. but im not sleepy, you see. & i have to work at 1100hrs tomorrow. which means, i have to leave my house at 1000hrs. which also means that i have to wake up around 0745hrs. sigh. i hate my life. really, i do. & my only resolution for twentyten was to be happy. as far as im concerned, im not.

i need you next to me, right now.
you were never there for me whenever i needed you the most.

86 400 seconds.

By FARAHMDY · January 19, 2010 · 0 Comments · 1 Views


attachment is currently messing with my head, sleeping pattern etcetra. i actually snapped at my patient for being impatient and kind of irritating. oh well, he partly deserved it anyway. ohmygod, Farah. you're so cruel! tsk. & you can easily find me at home, sleeping like i havent slept for a week. see what i mean by its messing with me?
i just abhor this course, i swear. the only reason why i embarked on this path is because of my parents. they are the one paying for my school fees after all. i just cant and refuse to see myself as a nurse, be it enrolled or registered. but hey, they know what's best for me right? RIGHT. so that is why i've decided to give it my best and go on to NYP after graduating. & who knows, i might even get to join Amirah & Yasser at Ireland. -.-"
yeah right, Ireland. as if my parents are gonna allow me to go abroad. oh hey, wait a minute. they will, only in my dreams that is.

twentyten

By FARAHMDY · January 12, 2010 · 0 Comments · 1 Views



as cliche as it sounds, i miss you guys dearly. plus aysha, who's not in the picture.

I found myself staring upward into the dark sky and watched, with sad eyes, the slow dance of infinite stars. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.

Goodbyes

By FARAHMDY · December 30, 2009 · 0 Comments · 2 Views


I dont want to blame anyone else for the mistakes that i've made, for the risks i took. the fact that writing is one of my escapes into sanity. whatever i wrote here is just a way to express myself.

Another year is coming to an end. its been a year full of ups and downs. but to be frank, this is the most unpleasant year ever for me. whatever i went through, made me wiser in a way, the ones who build me up and tear me down have somewhat taught me a meaningful life lessons. on a brighter note, 2009 holds memorable memories. 3 November, the day i turned 18. thanks to those who celebrated it with me. i didn't expect you guys to actually remember my birthday. it was the best birthday i've ever had. thanks. & the fact that i've made a number of true friends who stood by me in times of good and bad. thanks for being there for me when i needed you guys. i assume you know who you are (: Special thanks to EFA and FAZILAH. When my world is falling apart, when there's no light to break up the dark, when the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore. that's when you came along and made everything okay. thanks to you too, JANNAH.

i just want to be happy in twentyten. i want the people around me to be happy too. celebrate the new year with a new spirit and be optimistic. " forget the past, embrace the future. " someone gave me that advice (:

this will be my last post for the year. happy new year in advance, fellow Earthlings.
LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE.

DON'T.FALL.APART.

By FARAHMDY · December 23, 2009 · 0 Comments · 3 Views


Smile, though you're heart's breaking. i just hope i won't fall apart.
You’ll come across so many people in your life. Ones you think will stay in your life, stay with you forever. You’ll come across people you will love very much. But sometimes love isn’t enough to tackle all the obstacles in life and you will have to deal with the heartbreak of knowing that the person you love is gone and you’re left alone, to try your very hardest to fall out of love. To do something you never thought you’d have to do. Just keep your head held high. Don’t let it get to you, don’t fall apart. Clear your heart and let it go. And when it comes around again, let love in. Because you never know. It’s all about having faith.

ALHAMDULILLAH.
Glad to say that i did better than one.point.one. Thanks for all those good lucks and all the best(s). As for Os(man) & Yusrie, thanks for the prayers. Yes, you can say that i'm partly satisfied with my result (why partly, you might ask. well, i was trying to beat my brother's GPA score of 4. Instead, i got slightly less than that. but hey, there's still year 2, right? ^_^)

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